DUOFILIA

I’m going on an 18 day in-patient session for Lyme Disease. David says I need to journal it, so I will try.

In the meantime, some housekeeping in Duofilia.

I have to say that it is a little hard to start again because Fred’s not out there listening, but my friend and cousin Roger told me basically I could use that excuse for the remainder of 2008 but in ’09 I must get on with it. Writing has always been an essential part of my life, so I’m sure it will eventually get easier and good for my spirit. Life has changed a lot in the past year for many reasons and I am different. Hopefully in a good way. Obviously the loss of Fred was a huge thing for me, not to mention coming less than a year after Calvin’s death; the Lyme has been a pain, so say it lightly; my dad’s near-death in November; a big work crisis last year; family issues. I believe that these times in life are meant for a purpose; they are the prunings of the Master Gardener. Painful, at times excrutiating; but they have molded me. I hope I have come out the other side better, to someday be the fine prized rose He wants me to be.

Duofilia: As you can tell I went back to my Duofilia “roots” with the blog theme. I’m asking SydSum Design to design a new one for me — if I can get on his waiting list. I made you fresh chili and cornbread today, dude. Surely that’s a down payment. Until then, I’ll hang out in this theme.

This and that about my Lyme therapy: I’m not going to put the name of the clinic here, since Lyme treatment is currently politically charged and LLMDs (Lyme literate MDs) have been vilified in court, much like many mavericks and reformers in the past. But I will to journal my journey as best I can otherwise, but must say that exhaustion may be an obstacle. The purpose of journaling this will be to provide a record for myself, to let my loved ones know how and what I am doing, to be of some service to the Lyme community in general.

I leave on January 25 and return February 12. I plan to request the most intense session that I can take and I plan to push it to the limits. I am so done with Lyme. I am not saying I will walk away with a cure, but I do know that I will come out of this with renewed strength an energy. Cure is up to God and I can only do what I can on my end. 

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